I thought this was what I wanted, where I wanted to be but now I'm having second thoughts.

So many scattered thoughts.

So many retraced steps.

Through museums with captured moments hung so delicate, over wooden bridge and past quiet alleys. Through busy lit streets and department stores full of glittering accessories. Stores selling assorted meals and colourful drinks.

This town is charming. I adore it yet I feel empty like my soul isn't in it. I'm seeing the prettiest places and the happiest people but I don't feel like I belong.

Exchange has basically officially started and it's a mess.
Firstly, I did not budget. Who knew adulting would be so expensive?? I mean I thought salads were stuff that u were forced to eat not sacrifice over. the things I could buy for one tomato here.
Secondly, I lost my mobile today... Meaning goodbye to the most precious photos and countless important things and hello stress. Hello to a whole lot of stress...
Thirdly, I'm missing home but I don't even know where that is. My mum is here with me but it feels suffocating. I can't seem to sleep at night.

Also as the days get colder I seem to feel more inclined to stay in bed all day. Maybe it's not the worst thing but I don't want to completely shut off and distance everyone.


I hope that wherever you are to whoever might be reading you are warm and enjoying your home right now~